mel :
To my Y, I really thought I could handle life without you. I thought that if I just gave myself enough time, I'd eventually be okay. But I was wrong. Every day that we don't talk, I realize more and more how important you are to me. I got so used to having you in my life, telling you about my day, hearing about yours, waking up to your messages, and ending my nights talking to you. Now everything feels so quiet, and honestly, it doesn't feel right anymore. It feels like a part of me is missing. What hurts the most is knowing that we can't be together because of your family. We didn't lose each other because we stopped loving each other, but because of circumstances we couldn't control. That's the hardest part for me to accept. If love was the only thing that mattered, I know I would never let you go, and I know you loved me too. I keep asking myself why it had to be us. Why did God allow us to meet, fall so deeply in love, and create so many beautiful memories together if we weren't meant to stay together? I know life isn't always fair, but it still hurts so much trying to understand why we have to go through this. I'm not okay, baby. I still cry. I still miss you every single day. Every little thing reminds me of you, and every morning I wake up hoping this is all just a bad dream. The thought of not having you anymore breaks my heart over and over again. I never imagined that the person I wanted to spend my future with would become someone I had to let go of. No matter how much I try to stay strong, I still love you with all my heart. And I think that's why this hurts so much. I just wish things had been different. I wish we had been given a chance to love each other without having to fight against circumstances that were never our fault.
2026-08-02 23:35:26