Alee :
It honestly feels unfair…kasi ikaw naman yung unang pumasok sa buhay ko.I wasn’t the one who looked for you, hindi kita hinanap ikaw yung nag-initiate,nag sabi lang ako na crush kita pero tig intertain morin ako,you made it feel real,like hindi lang sya temporary and lahat ng pinag sasasabi mo? it's so convincing na para bang seryoso ka talaga,na kaya mokong panindigan,lagi mo ako tiga call out sa mga mali ko pero mas malaki naman nga yung sayo,ang problem molang is yung hindi ko pag paparamdam pero sino bang gaganahan sa mga actions mo? I wasn’t even searching for anyone,pero somehow, naging part ka narin naman na ng everyday life ko ah.
As time went by,nasanay ako sayo,sa presence mo,sa way mo makipag-usap,sa kung paano mo ako tratuhin.You made me feel seen, like I actually mattered, na ako yung gusto mo, na ako yung pipiliin mo.Pero ngayon, I can’t help but think…maybe you didn’t really love me,maybe you just loved how I made you feel. Yung care ko, yung pag-stay ko kahit may nagawa ka,yung pag-intindi ko sayo.But when it came to actually choosing me, to standing firm sa kung anong meron tayo,you couldn’t do it.Hindi ka naging sure, hindi ka naging consistent.
Hindi ako manhid. I notice everything. Napapansin ko yung small changes,yung paglayo mo,yung pagiging inconsistent mo,yung mga moments na parang wala ka na.I can clearly see kung sino yung mas nag-eeffort, kung sino yung mas may pakialam,at kung sino yung mas natatakot mawala yung isa.Ganahan kalang makipag usap when it’s convenient for you.Kunti palang,nag sisimula palang tayo,did you ever realize na kaya kitang intindihin kahit anong pinagdadaanan mo? Even at your lowest,I was willing to be there,to make you feel na hindi ka nag-iisa. I was ready to stay,not just sa good days mo, but even sa worst ones.
Ramdam ko kung kailan nag-iiba yung trato mo.I know when you’re no longer sure. Kahit wala kang sabihin, naiintindihan ko na kung anong nangyayari sa atin.I’m not stupid,I just chose to stay,kahit may red nakong nakita noon,kahit alam ko na yung truth.
And the truth is…kahit nakikita ko na lahat clearly,pinili ko pa ring manatili kahit ramdam ko na unti-unti,nagiging one-sided na lang lahat.
2026-08-03 08:01:13