Alex :
I feel this deeply. Met a guy long distance that we both fell for, we would constantly talk about our plans for the future, the things we'd do, the places we'd go, even the mundane things would make me so happy. I've always been a bigger guy which he didn't mind. But meeting him motivated me to change my life for the better. I think when we meet I was around 260lbs and while I didn't exactly love my body, I would have love to meet and do all the things together. Soon I started to do really well in weight loss, though the more I lost, the less I liked my body. The sagging skin, the wrinkles, I kept thinking I needed more time to work on myself, to be the best version of me to give to him. Soon I hit 175lbs and I'm still hugely insecure with my body. I kept pushing off meeting, till one day he just wasn't into pursuing a relationship with me anymore and he just doesn't feel the same. I eventually told him the truth and how I was insecure. He told me he found me more attractive as time went on but said nothing more than that.
We're still "friends" but it really stings to going from voicing daily, to not speaking over voice in 2 weeks. We still text daily and are trying to stay friends, but it's been so hard. I'm at the point where I'm not sure if I want to stay and maybe build things up again where we might have feelings for each other again. Or if it just hurts too much to even remain in contact.
2026-08-03 01:00:08