scream :
That numbness is an armour…dont ever forget that you didnt choose it and your not actively doint it,your body is closed from feeling everything good cause opening up would mean also feeling everything thats bad,so you feel a deep yearning inside that numbness.Your like a downregulated nerve,broken and unable to feel happiness,even that would be too violent for you,and do not forget youre not the one doing it,your body is.Your compulsive choices are a violent burnout from trying to make yourself feel good while not feeling good,remember your parenting yourself,you are parenting a broken kid,so do not get mad when everything feels bad,maybe he s still upset,still scared,still feels overtsimulated to open up to pain,your nerves goes trough that,you cant force them to open up to pain.
2026-08-16 14:43:21