୨୧ ── 𝓡𝓸𝓼é ── ♡ :
Being the youngest doesn’t always mean being the most spoiled. Minsan, being the bunso means learning how to keep things to yourself. Yung ikaw yung laging iniisip na okay lang kasi “siya naman yung bunso, siya yung mas bata” pero hindi nila alam na may mga araw din na napapagod ako, nasasaktan ako, at gusto ko rin maramdaman na may magtatanong kung okay pa ba ako, i always try to understand everyone, i always choose to smile, to stay quiet, and to say “okay lang ako” kahit deep inside ang dami ko ring gustong ilabas. Kasi ayoko maging dagdag na problema, ayoko makadagdag sa bigat na dala na ng iba, sometimes i feel like i have to be strong because that’s what everyone expects from me. Yung parang kailangan kong kayanin lahat kasi sanay naman sila na ako yung masayahin, yung nagjo-joke, yung nagpapagaan ng mood. Pero hindi nila alam na may moments din na gusto ko lang huminga at sabihin na “pagod na rin ako” as the bunso, i learned how to love quietly, i learned how to give without asking for anything in return, i learned how to hide my tears behind a smile because i don’t want the people i love to worry about me, pero sana balang araw, makita rin nila na hindi lang ako yung “bunso.” Tao rin ako na may feelings, may pangarap, may fears, at may mga laban na ako lang ang nakakaalam im grateful for everything, for my family, for the love, and for the lessons. Pero sana alam din nila na kahit ako yung laging mukhang strong, may puso rin akong napapagod, maybe im not always the easiest person to understand, maybe minsan tahimik ako or hindi ko masabi lahat, pero lahat ng ginagawa ko, ginagawa ko dahil mahal ko sila. And someday, i hope i can finally say “I survived every silent battle i never told anyone about” because behind every smile of the bunso is a story that people don’t always see
2026-08-15 14:18:28