Martha :
No happiness lasts; it is just what happens when you find the wrong person to share it, only to have it turned down. Despite me being in a long-distance relationship, he does not love the same way I do. Everything I have ever done for us until now... Is useless. He does not even accept me as his lady in his head; he can't fathom it… With this kind of love, it is damaging. Still, my heart is stupidly stubborn and refuses to let go of him because I love and care about him despite his flaws, despite his imperfections, despite his upbringing, despite his habits, despite everything that's clearly negative… He got burnt out from just calling me…the distance between us is far too great, yet im still wanting to try to work things out with him. He says that he wants to try for us, but I don't see the same effort I put in. He says he's always busy with work. I understand his job, but checking in on me would help me close the distance gap. I know it isn't the same… I wish everything went well for me, so I could allow him to fly to see me; he offered to meet me many times. It's not because im shy; it's because my past sorrows made me the way I am today… im just as broken as he is. But I know broken people can be beautifully mended with the right person next to them. I know he doesn't look like the right person to me; my friends, my own physical body, warn me that he isn't the one… the heart does what it wants, you know? Eventually my heart will give up; I don't know when. I always love hard, fall hard… only to be pushed away. 🫤
2026-08-08 19:28:24