moo :
to my avoidant matcha bear, if this comment finds you. know that I tried to love you the way you wanted to be loved. all the space and time for yourself. I never asked for a lot, no dates, surprises and I never even asked you to make it up to me for all the times you cancelled our dates and my family trip invites in the last 4 years. I never truly asked for a lot, but I absolutely hated it when you showed up for others but never for me. You colleagues, your game buddies and whatever guild you're playing on. It broke me to never be on the top priority list. Even when your own father subtly yelling you to treat me right, you probably never caught on that no? You've always ran away from your feelings BUT you were not this way in our first 2 years. so what changed? I always gave you my all until you gave me nothing. I never asked a lot because I know it makes you pull away. But do I have to keep comprising and diminishing myself? Do I have to be on death's bed again just for you to show up for me? I'm tired. We're not building out future. I AM building a future for us. I was always the one holding yhe relationship together, always making it work out, always fixing it. Whatever cool off period you needed, 3 days or even more? I let you have it. But why is too much for you yo be held accountable? I tried to show you a love you never had, but now I get why you've never had it. I adore you, always. But this time, since you let me go, I'm walking away so I can heal. I hope one day, in your next relationship, you'll finally realize how to make it work out. Take her to Japan for me.
Sincerely yours, secure made anxious attachment 🩵🩵
2026-09-10 17:16:50