fat single :
Before I left she could sit or sleep holding and touching her phone ,it the first thing and last thing ,never me ,while I was working she could manage the bills decided what we eat buy and where to go ,Before and after work and days off I did everything physical,while she sit on her phone, but i was not allowed near her separate bedroom just housemates never allowed affection or sex never allowed to touch her or cuddle,she never turned round in bed to cuddle or embrace, when you marry a woman who had hysterectomy and gets fibromyalgia plus so much other stuff, thats it you are now a carer,no sitting next to each with anythink really in common know if i mention cuddle or the kissing and sex on her programme she will stand up turn tv off tell me shes going to bed don't follow, you make the vow in church, but the feeling the loneliness the desire for a kiss and hug i mean a real hug, tell you everyday for over 8 years you are not wanted just needed ,i asked do you desire me ,her answer was no but I love you ,I stayed for foster child,that i didnt ignore people in places would see a daddy that listens doesn't get mad knows the child will talk and ask so many questions and come up to me and say its wonderful to see and leave him was the worst day of my life,no more watching his programmes,taking to school,being there to listen to him as he followed me round while i was doing all the chores, feeding pets ,but living with a wife that can't and won't give me affection walking on egg shells is no life,everyone is told I'm not allowed affection her mum my parents,even strangers are told,so her brother likes to ask if im being a good boy if not he will bring his baseball bat ,her reply to every one when im quite is would be " hes sulking because I don't want sex ",now im in a rented room just waiting to die feeling lonely,she went straight on to gov.uk to divorce me seconds from leaving,I never made a friend gave her 100%,I was loyal faithful caring ,so now no one to talk to ,NHS mental health helpline tell me im angry dont date anyone,im ruined obese ugly coward no one would want me, even i dont like what I look like
2026-08-27 19:40:08