@lindseynnicole: i think i died that day. it’s been a constant cycle that im mad when i wake up. im mad im still here. this is the worst pain i have ever experienced. & if you know me, you know how much i have been through but when i tell you this is the worst pain i have ever experienced. this is the worst pain i have ever experienced. i haven’t felt here since june. i’m physically not ok, mentally not ok. so i’m sorry i don’t post like i used too, sorry i don’t answer like i used too. i haven’t been ok. i won’t be ok. time has frozen for me. i wake up mad, i go to sleep mad. i’m beyond destroyed. im mad i couldn’t take away his pain. im mad for not kissing him back in february when i know he wanted too. im mad i couldn’t do something sooner. im mad for him for that day & leaving when i got him help. im mad for not doing more. im mad i couldn’t fill the shoes of people who weren’t there. im mad at everything. im mad at myself. i hate myself. i miss my baby. i wanted nothing but to take all of his pain away. i miss his smile. his beautiful smile. his lil gold cross on his tooth. i miss his laugh. i miss our 3 meal dates every single day where we’d order everything off the menu for no reason. i miss our conversations. i miss our hugs. i miss him mad at me for opening my door. i miss him yelling at me when i would change my wallpaper. i miss him. i miss who i was. i miss everything. i miss my soulmate.

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