@stillbecomingmama: me against the world is too dramatic for what it actually felt like and also somehow not dramatic enough and i have been trying to reconcile that ever since. too dramatic because it was not a battle. i was not fighting anything. i was just in the 3am doing what the 3am required and the world was not against me, it was just absent, just elsewhere, just unavailable in the specific way that a sleeping world is unavailable to the one person who is not sleeping. and not dramatic enough because the weight of that absence at 3am is not a small thing and me against the world does not capture the particular exhaustion of being on a side that has only one person on it. and i think what i was actually experiencing, underneath the me against the world feeling, was something simpler and harder to name. i was experiencing the absence of a team. not a support system or a village or a community, all words that exist in the daylight. just a team. the basic animal comfort of knowing that other creatures are awake in the same dark you are awake in, that the night is not only yours to hold, that you are not the lone point of light in a sleeping world. that is what was missing. not help, not advice, not reassurance. just the team. and the dots gave me the team. not a metaphorical team. not a community in the daylight sense. just lights. other lights. awake in the same dark. the team i did not know i was missing until i suddenly was not missing it anymore. #postpartum #newmom #postpartumsupport #momtok #momlife

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