eepyzs_ :
My ex reposted this, which is funny because I was the only one who tried and tried and TRIED to save our relationship. he didn't even care about us. He would apologize and continue doing the things that he KNOW would ruin us instead of fixing and saving us. Instead, he chose to play with his friends. He has a lot of time for other things, but not for me. He would rather play than spend time with me, knowing that I can't see him, I can't talk to him because we're LDR and we don't spend that time with each other because we're both busy in school. I make time for him but he can't. I know that it's his choice to do those things. He keeps saying that he's scared of losing me. But he wasn't scared of hurting me, which is one of the reasons that he gave me why I should leave. His insincere apologies are the worst. He would apologize over and over again, and I, as an empathetic and understanding person, would forgive him. But he just keeps doing things that he know that can affect us. But he didn't even bothered to pay attention to it.
If you're reading this, L, Please don't act like you even tried to save us, when all you did is to choose your friends, play games, become distant while seeing me drowning, struggle, and draining because of your actions. You didn't try to save us. You wanted us to end. So stop acting like you even cared about it. Because you didn't. And you never did. I hate the fact that I can't hate you. Don't even promise things that you can't fulfill, neither say something that isn't real. Saying you would choose me over your friends. I'm so disappointed in you.
I hope that all the things that you made me feel, the things that you did to me. Will forever haunt you at night. And I hope that when you have a new relationship again, I hope that you'll feel what you made me feel. How bad you treated me, how bad you made me feel, how bad you made me question myself worth. All of it.
I hope our paths won't cross again. I would rather be single forever, than to spend my whole life with someone like you. I don't hate you, but I won't forget all the bad and shitty things that you did to me.
- C
2026-08-16 15:12:58