Biscuitlover9000 :
this video resonated so much with me as far as feeling completely and utterly DEVASTATED over rejection and ruminating and feeling like sitting in my bed and overthinking is “the best way to get over things” bc I can think about them until I start to feel better, somehow justify it, or become exhausted and not care anymore. This was my experience in romantic relationships before I met my fiance, even when I KNEW they were not right (literally about people I KNEW I would never introduce to my friends and family) but also with other life things like job hunting, rejection after interviews, etc. I REALLY struggle with it and it feels like if I ruminate for long enough then I’ll be able to play out all possible scenarios in my head, whether it be after something happens or before. I struggle heavily with confidence so it’s almost like rejection reaffirms all the negative things I already feel/know about myself, and sends me into an absolute downwards spiral. I’m listening to an audiobook right now that said something along the lines of “fearful or anxious thoughts” are our bodies way to go through all the possible outcomes in our head so that when it happens to us, we aren’t as shocked because we’ve already thought of it. It feels so hard to get over if you’re a rumination girlie like us, because we already KNEW the vibes were off, so like I said, it literally reaffirms these obsessive thoughts we’ve been thinking so much about. So it’s almost like we keep doing it because it feels like we can figure out the outcome or why things didn’t work out if we sit and ruminate for long enough. It’s such a debilitating cycle. More often than not these days, I’ll obsess about something so much that it becomes so exhausting, and my brain is so tired of going in loops, I’ll almost detach myself from it completely. I’ll think something like “I’m so freaking exhausted from thinking about this, I don’t care if it happens or doesn’t anymore, I just want this thought cycle to be over”. It took my a long time to realize this, but not expressing my feelings just made it worse like you said. I’d rather put everything on the table and have it work out or not bc I’m exhausted.
2026-08-13 21:04:53