ronn :p :
bro honestly i don't even know what to feel rn. i'm trying my best not to make this a big issue kasi i know you can't control if someone likes you, and i don't wanna control you either. pero it still hurts, yk? kasi todo iwas ak sa girls and if someone likes me, i reject them agad because i love you and i don't want anything to happen that could make you uncomfortable or make you question me.
that's why hearing na carl still likes you kahit sinabihan na siya kinda got to me. i'm not blaming you for what he feels, kasi that's not your fault. i'm just saying na it makes me uncomfortable and i don't really know how to handle that feeling. especially when i know na he doesn't care na you're already with someone.
i don't want you to think na i'm telling you who you can talk to or who you can be friends with. that's not what i want at all. i trust you, i just want to feel like we're both protecting what we have. i don't expect you to control someone else's feelings, i just want you to know where i'm coming from and understand why it hurts me.
i'm probably overthinking a lot rn, but i don't wanna keep it to myself either. i told you before na i wanna be more open about what's bothering me, so this is me trying to actually communicate instead of becoming cold or keeping everything inside. i love you, and i'm not saying all this because i wanna fight with you. i just really care about us, and sometimes i care so much that small things get to me more than they should.
i'm not asking for anything crazy. i just want honesty, reassurance, and for us to be on the same page. i still choose you, and i still want you. i just needed to tell you how i actually feel instead of pretending i'm okay when i'm not.
2026-09-08 10:02:01