deepwaterabyss :
I let her go because she keeps disappearing for weeks then come back as if nothing happens, that’s the shit I dealt with for a year and a half. It was long distance and we never met in person because she always makes excuses and reasonings while when it comes to her guy friends and everyone else, she even said “I gotta make sure I’m there no matter what for them”. I let her go because for the whole time I was loving her and holding on to her, making sure I was there, making sure I made her feel that she was the girl I wanted to have a world with, even be transparent and be fully communicative, honest and patient, all I ever got from her was “you’re being impatient”, “youre too clingy”, “you’re hurting my heart”(while if anything its everyone else who’s treating her like crap, yet I was the bad guy for being there for her, even when the day she told me that she had sex with her own guy friend, in the alley near her house, and admitting that she knew I like her ever since the beginning. That time I hid my pain and when she came back and she needs emotional and mental support because she got pregnant, yet she couldn’t take care of it and herself properly, losing it, I stayed and waited and texted, called anytime I can and even during work. Then after that help her through uber, money food, then money just so she can get the things she wants and need at that time so she can eat and drink, and as well as spend time with her friends and family. I was there even though she only see it as I was clingy, needy, impatient, “asking too much” from her. Yet at the end, I was the bad guy for loving her and showing to her that she does deserved to be seen, be heard with her own feelings even if she doesn’t want to feel them but I’m there with her. Even on that time she made me hit on her friend, at the end I chose her because her friend was not treating her ok, even during the pregnancy. Last things she says was “I only wanted to talk”, “you seen that I change a lot” yet in reality it’s because she knows she’s getting more attention that she can easily put me aside, and just there when she’s not getting attention, call when no one else is giving it to her.
2026-09-29 00:11:34