Hiba Olb :
i used to be such a brilliant child, i was good at drawing and coloring since kindergarten, good at math and noticing things in my environment, i made a traditional scale out of scratch in my dad’s garage fully on my own at age 8, started to be intimidated by society saying i was too boyish and bossy whereas i was just smart and curious, puberty hit and boys started being way more rude and throwing sexual comments at their peers, and as a girl you just learn to shrink to avoid attention, i went through middle school always top of my class, developed portrait drawing skills and got 100% score in math in the middle school’s final exam that you pass with to high-school which gave me a chance to attend the national high-school of mathematics, i was so excited and my parents were too, we went to visit and ask questions to which we got vague answersand my parents were worried about my safety and well being as i was supposed to stay in the high-school dorms like an internship, the director seemed off and refused to talk about the safety and rights of girls in dorms, so we got scared and turned down the opportunity, got through a normal high-school kinda the same as middle school just studying well and trying to be invisible and not get involved in drama and trouble, got sick in my senior year with Narcolepsy type 1, the final uear is very important because there's a final exam with which the grade determines what chances you have to do something good in college, the higher the score the better, i got around 75-80% at it and chose med school, i was so happy about it, i got through it so roughly with my sleep disorder, everyone gaslighted my symptoms and believed i was just lazy, i cried endless times, fought for myself so much i did my own diagnosis in my 3rd year to which i sobbed my eyes out i knew i wasn't crazy or lazy, i love science i love learning and doing my best how can that be true! i didn't have any good medication options so i was just unmedicated, i got to know a guy in my fifth year (well he was a friend since the beginning but we weren't romantic in any way) and of course with the influence + that of society i started thinking about marriage
2026-10-06 20:33:45