koi :
hi, andrew young, Goo kijung, Aaron, Ashley, ilay, zhenya, my baby, my love. I don’t know if I’ll ever say this to you, but I still miss you. I miss you more than I want to admit, and honestly, there are still days when I find myself yearning for the things we used to have. I miss your presence, your hugs, your kisses, the way we used to go out together, and even the little things I never thought I’d miss—like your smell, your voice, and simply having you beside me.
sometimes I catch myself remembering the random moments we had, yung mga conversations, and those moments na wala naman tayong ginagawa pero masaya ako just because you were there. I miss the comfort of being around you. I miss how familiar everything felt when I was with you. And kahit ang dami nang nagbago, a part of me still looks back at those memories and quietly wishes I could experience them again, even just for a moment.
but I’m not going to reach out. not because I don’t care anymore, but because I already know that things might not be the same. I know there’s a chance you won’t respond, and honestly, I don’t think I can handle feeling like I’m the only one still trying to hold on. So instead of sending you everything I’m feeling, I’ll just keep it to myself.
maybe silence is the only thing I can give you now. I’d rather miss you quietly than disturb the peace you have without me. I’d rather keep these feelings to myself than send a message that might only leave me hurting more.
I still miss you, I really do. I miss all of you, even the little things I used to take for granted. But missing someone doesn’t always mean you have to go back to them. sometimes, you just have to accept that you can still love and miss someone while choosing not to reach out.
so if you ever wonder why I became quiet, it’s not because I suddenly stopped caring. Maybe I’m just finally learning how to miss you without looking for you. and kahit mahirap, I’ll let the memories stay where they belong—inside me, quietly, without asking anything from you
2026-09-14 15:41:37