Zžz AYNI . . . (( > _ < )) :
Oh god, you literally made me cry. Ever since I was a child, everyone would get angry at me, yell at me, and put me down for my tears and my gentle sadness. And nothing has changed now either. For any negative reaction I have, my friends, my family, other people get angry and scream, 'You're ruining everyone's mood, why can't you just keep it all inside?' 'You're so annoying with that gloomy face, you're ruining everything,' they deliberately avoid me, as if I'm some kind of vicious dog locked in a cage. Even though, because of all this, I've had a defense mechanism since childhood to hide all my emotions. And then you, when I finally managed to let something out, you immediately put me down again and again. I'm so tired of physically not being able to squeeze my real emotions out of myself. They literally stay inside me like a heavy barbell. It feels like no one is even trying to see my emotions, everyone dislikes my true feelings, they just want to be comfortable themselves. I don't know how to show genuine emotions anymore. I’m sorry for my bad English, I tried my best:((
2026-08-19 17:32:42