user8768592037901 :
Well I think it’s really about understanding and perspective. If I would have had knowledge, or awareness that my phone, internet, glasses ect.. where being displayed publicly I would have made different decisions as to not be hurtful, or harmful to anyone. I would have taken more care as to how I was expressing myself, and done so differently, I wouldn’t have joked, or messed around with people I knew where not taking me seriously and knew who I was, as opposed to those who do not know who I am. I would hope there is a realization that my experiences and what was being done behind my back, severely effected my attitude, behavior, and overall mental health, and that is not something you would want done to you. I gave up quite while ago, thinking positive about this whole thing. Attempts at direct communication and resolve have been ignored. I have held up my hands and stated openly “you got it wrong, someone screwed up here.. I’m a reasonable person”. I mean what the frick else can I do? Just accept tragic life devastation,and loss and move on.. to what.. more planned rejections, setups, and life devastations. The feeling like I’m locked into a never ending imaginary monster hunting quest, where I’m the target. Shamed, blamed, and framed for things that are not my fault.. I don’t know man. I try to turn things onto a brighter perspective, but the blows just keep coming in (even if they are only in my own realizations about the past, or people who where in my life)
2026-08-21 21:11:06