Rion :
this is a sensitive topic for me. i get bullied for it a lot, even my own friends make jokes about it. i don't even have the courage to date someone, i feel like i'm not good-looking enough for them. i always feel ugly whenever i look in the mirror, especially with bad lighting. i feel like i don't deserve anyone with this kind of looks. it gets to the point where i don't want to go outside as much as possible. i hate bright lights, sunlight, because it makes it more noticeable. i'm scared to look at my own reflection in public. once i see my own reflection, i get anxious and quiet. it's so humbling for me that it always reminds me that i'm not that good-looking. i don't take photos, especially selfies, without filters and good lighting. yes, i don't post myself a lot. i'm too insecure. 4 birthdays have passed, and i don't have any pictures of me taken and posted, or else it'll ruin my day. i just realized i missed so many opportunities and experiences. i'm just gonna say it ruined my entire life by being too shy and insecure about it. i can't do anything about it. i'm still a student, and procedures and treatments are expensive. we're not that financially stable enough to afford that. maybe one day, if i get rich, i'll focus on myself first, so i can finally seek the happiness i need.
2026-08-27 04:17:14