@gingerbitch101: he won me my banana key chain and i felt a wave of joy and relief thinking that things could be different this time. this was a week ago and now im back to where i once was, hopeless and defeated. im always gonna be in love with him and im always gonna hope that one day we could make it work, but i feel free now, like my last effort was really my last one. he made fun of me and i smiled at the sunset instead of reacting. i didnt complain and i didn’t get upset, i was just happy to be in his presence. the best thing he could do for me is say no and although it hurts more than anything, i have to learn that love shouldn’t feel like this and that i cant waste another three years begging him to stay. this time im going to do it sober. i wont hide behind alcohol and drugs to cope with how much i miss him and want him back. im going to face it head on and cry when i need to and hug my friends. that’s all for my internet overshare.

lauren

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Saturday 22 August 2026 23:44:50 GMT