They blame me even for stuff I never did. And I don't get why I keep getting treated like I'm guilty before anything even happens. Like there's already a mark on me, and it doesn't matter what I do, how I act, what I say. I'm always the one at fault. Yeah, I messed up. It's been a long time already, but they still throw it in my face. They bring it up, remind me, twist it like it happened yesterday. Like I don't deserve forgiveness. Like my whole life is now reduced to one moment that makes me permanently bad. I don't get it, I just fucking don't get it. Maybe I really do deserve to be treated like this. Maybe I'm so used to being the guilty one that I've started believing it myself. I got attached to the wrong people. Gave myself to those who weren't even worth a fraction of my feelings, and now I'm paying for that stupid trust. I'm shaking. Just sitting here shaking from all of it, from the unfairness, from the exhaustion, from the ache. And I hope I make it to tomorrow. Just make it. At least one more day. #Minecraft #fyp #real #sad #depressed - @7debts_7sins