@.fr4g1le_: im so done. im jealous of my friend finally getting better. this is so awful i cant. im so upset cause i never feel good for a long time. only short period from 5 mins to 12 hours. nothing more. i havent felt relief for past 3 years. and i know i will never love how i live, i will never love and be proud of what im doing, i will never love myself. i see close person to me gettin better, getting all what he wants. and i know i supposed to be happy for him, but i cant. i look at these posts he posting and getting so pissed off, so angry. genuinely cant be happy for him. i want all what he has also. i want to be center of attention. i want to be this worthful as he do. and yet im nothing. i will never be better. i will be always the second one or even worse - the last one. i shouldnt have had any friends in the first place. i never will be generous with them when they will get better. when they will becoming better at something i do, i always will be mad or upset. this is so stupid. im so sorry, my friends. im an awful person. i will hurt you all again and again. like i did to my previous friends. im so angry i was raised this way. i will be never fixed. lypsing cr — @/kabutokisser on tiktok.
