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📔Chapter 27: being the ‘problem child’  It doesn’t sound great writing that icl. I was deemed as the difficult child and I ALWAYS hated that. Because I was like the angel student at school and a people pleaser through and through so it always felt completely wrong being known as that. All I wanted was to please my family and anyone around me and essentially be the ‘favourite child’ (lol)   I’ve selfishly put blame on people to explain why I felt ‘disconnected’ from my family but tbh I’m realising no one is to blame here. I’m just as responsible for it  I was just a kid wanting to feel heard and seen in a big big family and the only way I found myself being heard and seen was when I’d shout and create this whole scene. Then I’d run up to my room and cry all night because I looked like this child that I never wanted to be. An angry one.  I was just worsening the situation  And I worsened it even more by growing up and giving up on communicating all together. It made me distance myself and become more private. I found that if I spoke or interacted less, it was safer that way. I didn’t give myself the opportunity to argue because I didn’t have any room to slip up??  Idk if I’m making sense  But I’m thinking about this all because I’ve always wanted to be close close to my family. Like we all get along, and of course love each other so much but that’s never really communicated and sometimes I wish it was.  And that explains why I hate communicating my feelings to anyone at all. It’s not all just ‘fear of rejection’, it’s fear of opening up and being misunderstood like I was as a kid  There’s so much at play, so many personalities and so much constant change in dynamic which means every sibling in every family will have different experiences  I guess this is just mine ❤️🩵🗣️
📔Chapter 27: being the ‘problem child’ It doesn’t sound great writing that icl. I was deemed as the difficult child and I ALWAYS hated that. Because I was like the angel student at school and a people pleaser through and through so it always felt completely wrong being known as that. All I wanted was to please my family and anyone around me and essentially be the ‘favourite child’ (lol) I’ve selfishly put blame on people to explain why I felt ‘disconnected’ from my family but tbh I’m realising no one is to blame here. I’m just as responsible for it I was just a kid wanting to feel heard and seen in a big big family and the only way I found myself being heard and seen was when I’d shout and create this whole scene. Then I’d run up to my room and cry all night because I looked like this child that I never wanted to be. An angry one. I was just worsening the situation And I worsened it even more by growing up and giving up on communicating all together. It made me distance myself and become more private. I found that if I spoke or interacted less, it was safer that way. I didn’t give myself the opportunity to argue because I didn’t have any room to slip up?? Idk if I’m making sense But I’m thinking about this all because I’ve always wanted to be close close to my family. Like we all get along, and of course love each other so much but that’s never really communicated and sometimes I wish it was. And that explains why I hate communicating my feelings to anyone at all. It’s not all just ‘fear of rejection’, it’s fear of opening up and being misunderstood like I was as a kid There’s so much at play, so many personalities and so much constant change in dynamic which means every sibling in every family will have different experiences I guess this is just mine ❤️🩵🗣️

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