тнєяєѕєє~۶ৎ~ :
oh j, where do i even start? he was the first person i ever loved this deeply. nobody will ever understand how much that boy meant to me, not even him. no matter how hard i try to move on, there’s always gonna be a part of me that misses him. i still think about the conversations we had, the memories we made, and all the things i thought we’d get to experience together. maybe things didn’t work out the way i hoped, but that doesn’t change how real my feelings were. i loved him with my whole heart and if i could go back and relive every good moment, i would in a heartbeat. i hope life is treating him well, and even if we’re not together anymore, a piece of my heart will always care about him. some people come into your life and leave a mark that never fades, and for me, that person will always be him.i don’t think i’ll ever be able to put into words what he meant to me. he wasn’t just another person in my life, he became a part of me. the kind of part you don’t realize is there until it’s gone. i loved him in a way that scared me because i never thought i’d care about someone that much. i trusted him with pieces of my heart i swore i’d never give to anyone. i pictured him in my future, in my happiest moments, in all the little things life had waiting for me. and maybe that’s why losing him hurt so much. it wasn’t just losing a person, it was losing all the dreams and memories i built around him too.some nights i still find myself wondering if he ever thinks about me the way i think about him. if he remembers the conversations, the laughs, the moments that meant everything to me. because the truth is, i carry those memories everywhere. no matter how much time passes, they stay. people say time heals everything, but some people leave a mark on your soul that time can’t touch. and he was one of those people.i never wanted perfect. i never needed perfect. i just wanted him. through every flaw, every hard day, every misunderstanding, i would’ve stayed. i would’ve chosen him over and over again. that’s what hurts the most sometimes.
2026-08-29 01:27:04