eli :
to mr. infatuated, i hope you know that you are always loved and appreciated by me. i know i've said it many times before, but i want to keep reminding you that you are worthy of being loved deeply by someone—by me. even though you said that you can't pursue me, that you can't love me the way i love you, and that you can't reciprocate all of this, it's okay. it's okay because i love you, and i will respect whatever your decision is. i will accept whatever you can give me if it means having you in my life, even if it isn't everything i wish it could be. before, i hated people like you—people who were unsure about their feelings. but i guess there's an exception to everything. i actually hated men because i believed there were no decent men in this world. maybe i had to believe that because of how my father turned out. but somehow, i found myself making an exception, and that exception is you. adi, please don't ever think that you're a bad person just because you can't reciprocate my feelings for you. you don't have to feel guilty for something you can't force yourself to feel. i told you, i will wait whenever you're ready. and if that day never comes, it's okay. i mean it. i'd rather have you in my life in whatever way you can than lose you completely. it's fine if you only talk to me when it's convenient for you. at least i know i still have a place in your life, no matter how small that place may be. and if you ever find someone else, i'll still be here. i hope you find someone you genuinely love, and someone who will love you for exactly who you are. i hope that someone will love you even more than i do. and if they ever hurt you, you can always come back to me. i'll always welcome you with open arms. i don't think i'll ever have it in me to turn you away. i miss you every day, my adi. please take care of yourself, okay? :(( i'm always rooting for you. i hope you achieve everything you've ever dreamed of, and i hope you know that you are deserving of every blessing you receive and every blessing that is yet to come. i hope God guides you in everything you do, protects you wherever you go, and leads you toward the life you deserve. godspeed, my adi. :))
2026-08-28 01:32:58