@jaylen.strong: Something In Me Changed #fyp #monologue #deepthoughts #overthinking #depressed

Jaylen Strong :

Some things change you in ways you don’t really know how to explain.

xxxblueface :

So real man, so real!!

Clay B :

I'm genuinely wondering if I've actually died and am "living" in my own personal Hell....I've worked all but 2 days since early September but still struggling just to get tonand from work the next week and average 1-3 hours of sleep. My minds starts racing with stress, worry, regret, shame, ect. and my anxiety spikes the second my eyes open. I'm so far from who I used to be both mentally and physically. Idk who I even am anymore and honestly I never really got the chance to figure me out in the first place. I've lived in constant stress and in fight or flight mode for so many reasons that my nervous system i fear is far too unregulated to ever feel "normal" again. I'm anxious, depressed, and completely burnt out allllll day long until my body finally gives out for the day. Take what feels like a quick nap, then it's up and at em to have the same day time and time again. I lost the sensation of individual days a long time ago. This is my baseline. I've completely forgotten what genuine happiness, excitement,joy, or hope even feel like 😔

2xxfrank :

Autopilot

The Dark Ninja :

Dayum this is deep, but I know that familiarity with sadness. I'm not this far along but sad doesn't really feel sad anymore, it almost feels good. it's almost become my baseline. I've got a lot I should be thankful for and I am mentally, but I just can't feel grateful. it's hard to feel anything besides the deep sadness I've been sinking in for so long. I'm at least thankful for the few people I have that help pull me out of it, even if it's only when I'm in their presence. Some days though I can experience something happy like a tiktok or something like that, and feel happy but equally sad, thinking "Damn, good for them. Really." Some days there is no sweet, just bittersweet. Sorry for rambling but man I hope you pull through this, whatever you're dealing with, however you're feeling, and I hope that one day you find happiness again and it stays. Peace brotha ✌️

jugopluto_ :

eodvet803 :

What movie

🪬Conscious_LoneWolf🐺 :

I am him

J :

Jaxon :

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