@wordswithjaymen: Letting go

Jon Braconnier :

This 100% this. Then if they choose to come back stronger then before you don’t have to repair damaged connections, hurt feelings or resentment instead you can rebuild on stronger and more powerful foundations. She came back to me, but stupidly I refused quickly infact I immediately said “no, I couldn’t trust you again” even tho no harmful words were truly said during the split up it’s that we were together for 5 years and engaged and she left in the blink of a moment and I was hurt really badly. But I never forgot her smell or her touch the day she came to visit me. I searched for it again and again in everyone I met, after sitting with my thoughts for a month I decided to reach out again and told her I wanted to see her again, her smile, her voice, her smell I’m beginning to realize. It’s still her, she is still my one and I can trust her I always could. I just fear the outlook of others for the first time in my life I chose to care about others opinions over my own happiness and that is not something I will ever do again because this is my life and she at one point was my wife. I miss my wife. I believe everything happens for a reason and if we were meant to separate to truly know if we were meant to be then so be it. If I could afford to fly to her tomorrow I would even if it’s just for a day. I still have so much to decide but the more I think the deeper I get the more it feels right to work on things because love isn’t meant to be easy. It’s meant to be tested and sometimes we fall