For the context: Ilang beses ng nangyare ang ganito, weeks and months had passed and it’s getting worst and worst until i reached the reason to leave. Even the very first day nong pumunta ako sa bahay nila ganito na ang nangyare, nagkasakitan, nagkamurahan, and nagkapatawaran (anw, i’m from Bicol and 3days pa lang kami nag uusap, i decided to flew from Bicol to Pampanga) Yes, sorry if hindi ko muna kinilala yung tao bago ako makipag commit, i’m sorry i know i’ts my choice and my fault—no one to be blame for—but me. I just held into his words that he’ll take care of me and he’ll support through everything, so ako naman tong tanga na ready to be with someone with the same vision as mine, ayon pumunta sya. Fast forward, the video attached there was a night of my worst nightmare na hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin ako pinapatahimik, i tried to resist it and wag e post not until i told to myself that i need to do this para mabigyan ng katahimikan ang isip ko, cuz fvck HE DESERVE THIS. After everything, hindi man lang sya feel sincerely sorrys sa ginawa nya? The fact that even if nandon pa ako sa bahay nila is dinala nya na agad bago nya? the disrespect? monthsarry pa natin yon ha!?? Anyway, that night he and his friend had a table of alcohol, ayon umabot ng 3am and tuloy tuloy silang umiinom. After nilang uminom, nakaupo kami sa sofa and they’re just having pahinga then inaya nya ako makipaglaro ng something like pipigain yung kamay, yung parang palakasan ng piga but i told him let’s play another game instead—but he refused. While we’re playing, nong una medjo masakit na pagkakadiin nya and i told him naman na masakit, pero hindi pa rin sya nagpatinag. Then, the last game was cruel one, sabi ko habang tinitiis yung sakit ng kamay and nagpupumiglas na bitawan nya na sabi ko “ang sakit! bitawan mona!” tapos sa sobrang sakit hinampas ko sya sa hita and after non, inambahan nya ako ng suntok, but instead of feeling sorry sabi nya “ay t4angina wag mokong sinusubukan, lasing ako ngayon!”. After that, umakyat nako sa taas, syempre inis ako kasi imbes na mag sorry sya is galit pa sya dahil sa reaction ko don sa ginawa nya. Habang nasa taas ako, pinapauwi nya na kaibigan nya and pinapababa nya ako para ligpitin yung mga kalat sa baba na pinag-inuman nila, but i refused kasi nga naiinis pa rin ako. So naiinis sya kasi hindi ko sya sinusunod, doon na naghamok ng gulo. Pero ang sabi ko lang sa kanya is mag sorry sya since nasaktan nga ako, pero ayaw nya kasi ako naman daw unang nanghampas sa kanya. So ayon, habang tumataas na ang tension is umakyat sya tapos sinusuntok nya yung unan sa tabi ko, but after that bumaba na sya and sabi nya sa kaibigan nya na umuwi na. So hinatid nya sa labas ung kaibigan nya, he locked the door, all the windows and doon na nangyare ang lahat. I know this may ring immatured, but FVCKED Maturity kung mananatili akong tahimik at patuloy na nasasaktan habang sya parang hindi man lang iniinda ang sakit na dulot nya and nag eenjoy kasama ang bago nya. Isa lang ang masasabi ko, HINDI AKO MANANAHIMIK HANGGAT HINDI KA MAN LANG SINCERELY SORRY SA MGA GINAWA MO SAKIN! WALA KANG AWANG TAO KA!! You will never understand the pain you’ve caused to me. You have no idea how much it teared me apart, carrying both anger and resistance. I stayed even if ganon ka! i stayed even after receiving bare minimum! I stayed kahit ang unfair unfair mo! Bangungot ka sa buhay ko! Sana maging masaya ka dahil may isang tao ka na namang muntik mahigitan ng buhay! I WILL NEVER EVER LET MY PATH CROSS WITH YOU AGAIN! AND IF DESTINY WILL EVER BRING ME TO YOU AGAIN, I’LL ASK THE HEAVEN TO LET YOU FEEL ALL THE PAIN THAT I’VE SUFFERED FOR A LONG TIME. #fyp #abusiverelationship #awareness #mlm #makeitviral - @differenshit