pami ☆ :
i feel like i relate to this, my parents don’t necessarily treat me like shit, well they still look after me by since i live with my mother, and they still feed me and make sure i have clothes to wear, all the basic stuff. i am grateful for that, and i understand that others may not have the life i have, but my parents making sure i am able survive shouldn’t be something i should praise them for, that’s what they have to do, not what they want to do because i am still a kid and i am their child. the issue i really have with my parents is how they treat me emotionally. i dont speak to them regularly, my father is in contact with me but my parents are separated and i live with my mother. i never speak to my dad, only if need transport or food for school, thats it. i don’t have a relationship with them, a relationship where i feel loved by them, where they check in on me, their daughter. i can’t remember the last time i’ve genuinely felt loved by my parents, like genuine love, acts they would do for me not because they have to, but because they want to be there for me and make sure my wellbeing and esteem is high. i envy people’s parents who genuinely check up on their children, show the love, and go out of their way to do things for their children to make me happy. i feel like im a robot, my parents tell me what to study in college, and when i tell them what i want to do, they never hear me out or take me seriously, they want to make it seem like they know everything about me — “you’re good at maths/sciences”, but i’m not? and they know i’m not the best at it, but they want to build my future for me, and they don’t want me to build it. the future that i will spend my adulthood in. i understand they know what’s best for me, but im not a naive little kid. recently i’ve been going through a lot, my mental health has been really bad, they never check in or reach out. and when they knew it was bad in the past, and i tried to explain to them i wasn’t okay, they discarded it like i was being “dramatic”. sure they may not do shitty things directly to me, but that doesn’t automatically make them good parents. i just wish i felt more love in my family.
2026-09-08 21:54:33