Ashie :3 :
-to my CIE lian
hey, i really hope you find this. i know im the one who stupidly ended things, but hear me out.. the first time i broke up with you, by blocking you everywhere without a word, the reason i told you was a lie. it was actually because i couldn't accept that i was falling deep inlove with a girl. i even got a boyfriend and everything, but it didn't feel right. i felt really sick whenever I'd call him the nicknames we gave each other.. then we got back together- i mistreated you again because there was just something inside me that couldn't accept that the person i was loving was a girl.. and this time, you ended our relationship first. i didn't know how to feel. i switched from boyfriend to boyfriend, yet nothing felt right.. nothing filled the gap that you made when you left me because of my idiotic choices. you haunted me in several ways. your pictures were in my gallery named “best friend”.. i didn't have the guts to delete it. then our favorite characters, xie lian and hua cheng haunted me too. your name was cie, and my name was cheng, so, we always made our trademarks CIE lian and hua CHENG. though i wish that i was as brave as hua cheng and loved you the right way. you deserved to be yearend for, for 800 years like hua cheng did for xie lian. but now, whenever I'd stalk you, i can atleast see that there were no traces of the mistreatment i gave you. i really hope you and your girlfriend are happy. im really, really sorry my baby.
-hua CHENG
2026-09-17 00:51:15