ᥫ᭡☾☪︎𝄞your_YANGYANG𝄞☪︎☽ᥫ᭡ :
mahal ko sya to the point that sometimes i choose to ignore the pain even when it’s already hurting me deeply, because losing him feels heavier than anything i’m going through. i know he don’t want me to drain myself for him, i know he’ve said that before, but i can’t help it because this is how much i love him. when he love someone this deeply, he tend to give more than him should, even when it starts to hurt, even when it slowly takes pieces of him away. i’m willing to sacrifice everything for him, even if it hurts, even if it becomes too much, even if there are days when i feel like i’m slowly losing parts of myself, as long as hi’s happy and he feel that someone is still choosing to stay with him no matter what. i don’t want to be a burden to him, that’s why most of the time i choose to keep everything to myself even when what i’m feeling is already too heavy. i’m scared that if i open up too much, it might push him away or turn into another misunderstanding, and i don’t want that. so i stay quiet, not because i don’t feel anything, but because i’m trying to protect what we have. i love him so much, and with him, i felt things i never thought i would ever feel in my life, a kind of love that was so pure, so deep, and so real that it changed me completely. but at the same time, he’s also the person who made me feel a kind of pain i never imagined i would go through, and that kind of pain hits differently because it came from the same person who once made me feel so safe and loved. i just hope that when he’s having a hard time, he would still look at me the way he used to, the way he used to see me before, like i still matter, like i’m still someone he choose even when things aren’t easy. i’m not asking for everything to go back to how it was before, i just want to feel hes love again, even in the smallest ways, even just a little, even if it’s not the same as before, just enough to remind me that what we have is still real. and please don’t ever think that i stayed because i had no choice, because that’s not true. i’m staying because i’m sure about him.
2026-09-08 02:21:36