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Some people leave our lives, but they never end. They take something from inside us a little bit each day,,smiles, sleep peacefully, dreams of future. I realized once, man didn't just go away; he broke my whole man in silence before he left. The most brutal truth is,,the person I'm so drained for,he might never know,even after he's gone I'm dying a little bit everyday.
I just didn't love you. I kept you alive within my tomorrow, my habits, my prayers, my every dream. I wrote your name on every door of my future. I used to think, the world can change, people can change, time can change,, but you will not change. That trust was the biggest mistake of my life.
When you left, only one person didn't leave. Innumerable little dreams inside me died together. Even today when I wake up at midnight, I forget for a few seconds that you are no longer mine. Maybe, let me write you once. Then reality comes silently and reminds me,, the one whom I am calling as mine, is now a man of another world.
Know, people's tears don't always fall from their eyes. Some tears are collected in human behavior. Some tears turn into silence. Some tears make people alone even in the crowd of hundreds. I'm living like a silent cry right now. Everyone sees me. No one sees my inside.
You don't know, how many times I swallowed my pains just thinking,, maybe one day you will look back. How many times I broke my pride to get a news of you. How many times have I convinced my self-esteem,,try it again. Yet every time back just emptiness.
Do you know the most painful thing?
Even if you hate me, I might not hurt this much. But you forgot, as if I never existed. As if I was not a chapter of your life,,just an unnecessary page to fall by mistake.
Even today when I look at myself in the mirror, I think I am not the person who could laugh out my heart. I'm alive after losing you, but the person inside me who loved you unconditionally has died long ago.
Still if you remember me someday... If on a lonely night suddenly an old picture of mine makes your eyes wet... If you feel an emptiness inside the chest for no reason... Then just think once,,how easily you left the person who ruined all his life for
2026-09-02 15:07:25