@realimangadzhi: I was 16 in this video. Walking around with a camera in front of my face, genuinely embarrassed, trying to convince myself it was worth it. I couldn't afford a £15 meal. I was saving up £500 like it was a fortune, because to me, it was. I hit 500 subscribers and felt like I’d finally gotten somewhere, even though I was still only at the beginning. I was learning how to make thumbnails, filming chest day like anyone cared, and telling myself that if one person watched and felt something, that was enough. I didn't know where any of it was going. I just knew I didn't want to stop. People see the results now and think there was some moment where everything clicked. There wasn't. There were just a lot of days like this one, where nothing was happening and I kept showing up anyway.