🕸 ℌ𝔬𝔟𝔦𝔢 𝔟𝔯𝔬𝔴𝔫 🕸 :
for my siblings, I rather stay alive for them, not cause i fear they might miss me when i'm gone, but cause I consider myself being their shield, i'm 19, working my ass out, doing 35 to 40 hours per week at work, we have parents that are absent emotionally, they manipulate us by saying " if you don't do ___ i'll take away all your things" or "if you don't help me in the yard, i'll remember it later and I won't buy you what you want", even after 10 hours of work at my job, I still have to "work", since my siblings started high school and already have a lot of homework, I do the chores or my parents will scold me for not doing enough in the house, but when it comes to buy some stuff in the market, pay a part of the rent for them or needing my money i work my ass for, they absolutely need me, and later on they scold me for using my own money for stuff I want to buy for myself; anyways, my own reason to live my miserable life is to protect my siblings so they're not the next to be targeted by my parents, nothing else
2026-09-04 06:58:58