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do you think its possible even if he said he doesn’t see the future with me and we wont get along in the future when everything was great with us? is it possible that he looks back even if he told me to forget him after a whole year and months of being together? he got overwhelmed by my clinginess, but i was just going through so much stuff he got tired bc i needed him at that moment. if im honest whenever i wasnt “the always available person” he was just as clingy and he was obsessive, sometimes controlling. now it was all turned around and suddenly i was the problem because of my “miserable life” and “intense emotions..” he said no matter how much he loves me we wouldnt get along and convinced himself i was the problem, yet he was a problematic partner. no skills of communication, always isolating himself whenever things got hard.. he genuinely thinks hes not emotional but he so is, just because he doesnt express it by crying like me doesnt mean hes not. he doesn’t even know what he is, sometimes he says hes emotional sometimes hes not and he thinks his avoidant patterns didnt affect the relationship at all, as if i didnt struggle for months to deal with it and accept him for the way he was. i put so much effort in the relationship, if not me, it would have always been at the edge of ending it. i may have over expressed emotions at times as a teenage girl, but he could have come to communicate and explain what bothers him because i didnt realize it myself, he didnt accept me for who i was and didnt even bother to talk to me. instead he called me depressive, insecure, told me i have no friends, used my sickness against me, the fact that i cried and threw up a lot, he said i was nothing but a girl who always complains as if i didnt light his days every day the whole year i did nothing but make him feel so loved and cared for, he saw my genuine love for him. he saw that others didnt care as much as i did when there were special occasions. i always worried about how he was, how his days went, if i gave him enough support and comfort whenever he felt down i would always open my arms for him. from my side it was definitely genuine love.. and he just gave up on us
2026-09-02 16:42:43