Trixzie :
I would just lay it out here because it kills me , he was stressing out this whole summer , about his life and I know how hard his life is and because its summer we dont meet we only meet at uni and its hard for us to meet up , anw this whole summer I been trying to make him feel better and I try to convince him into stop worrying abt what he cannot control but he is soem perfectionist he couldnt stop over working and exhausting himself and we were being good. although we had fights and arguments and all , at the end we always always take it slow and talk slow and are good in the end , never did he let go of me even when we couldnt communicate well for a day or 2 , we were both emotionally tired because we needed to see eachother , and Monday night we talked abt what if smtg happens and we broke up but we didnt finish the talk be cause he had to sleep he always sleeps earky so it was okay for me because we understand when we are too exhausted communicating will be worse and the day after I texted gm as always sent reels and stuff as always I didnt force anything through , no replies at all no reoplies and felt smtg was wrong , I am used to his sudden silence because ik him but this time it felt off I couldnt sleep and he didnt text me till lyeatserday said he had bad news he got to the bottom and told his parents he would end his life and they took him to physicatrist and they kept him in during the 2 days where we didnt talk told me they been giving him meds and he showed me the doc prescription of staying away from ppl generally and not to be on the phone much bla bla bla and he told me we should break up so he can only focus on his self and try to heal from ll the stress and told me repeatedly its not my fault and apologized and told me we would talk again but it will take so long and he doenst know if he will be the same again because either woukd take a while to heal from how he got hurt , and I hate how I knew, I knew he woukd get the shut down , it did hurt me how he had to delte our convos because they were gonna go through his phone and our pics and its just it broke my heart that I dont know what I shoukd do ,he said dont stay for me because he
2026-09-04 13:28:26