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i think for now, all i can do is just redha, even when deep down im still struggling with it. i choose to act like im okay, act happy, bcs somehow it really does make me feel a little better and helps me forget the pain for awhile. i yakin Allah tak suruh kita sedih selamanya. even when the trauma is bad and the wound runs really deep, im still allowed to have good days, to laugh, to be okay outside. being okay doesnt mean im healed, and smiling doesnt mean it doesnt hurt anymore. i’ll just take it one day at a time. i appreciate every ujian Allah bagi, even the ones i dont understand rn. maybe slowly, with time, hati ni akan learn how to carry it better. it still hurts, yes, but i believe one day it wont hurt this much anymore. and for now, being okay for a little while is enough.
2026-09-05 02:23:46