U :
I give myself a 9.8 and the reason its not a 10 is because when i read that verse in Matthew, where Jesus says depart from me to people who were convinced they were going to Heaven, i started having doubts. How do i know I’m not like them? How do i know if there isnt a blind spot im unaware of? I do believe Jesus is the only way i can to to Heaven, i am very aware of most of my shortcomings but i fear having to face Jesus with 100% security and hear the same thing in Matthew. Why? Because I know i have fornicated recently despite going strong for years, i know i know i am having strong cravings for going back to weed despite being sober for Him for 1 year and 2 months , and i know i might end up smoking if im careful and fall back into the addiction. I know i have never been able to run from lust , because the longer i go without it the higher my drive. That’s what led me to formicate after so many years running from it. I am pretty sure most of you will tell me to just stop doing these things, and that’s exactly why i have my doubts : i literally cannot stop no matter how much j pray for these desires to dissapear from my heart, you telling me “you can do it through the Lord” does absolutely nothing for me, i keep trying and failing. Literally if any of my actions are taken into account to earn Heaven, i do not have any hope. Literally, if Jesus sacrifice doesn’t cover ALL my sins, including those that i keep doing over and over, i do not have any hope. I dont like doing my sins, but it’s like the addict that tries to stop his addiction: they dont like their addiction, but they go back to it bc they’re addicted. Is that person covered if they put their hope in Christ since they clearly go back to their addiction daily? Any help is appreciated
2026-09-04 23:22:21