@healing.through.chaos_: Something great must be coming real soon, because the devil has been fighting me REAL bad this week. He’s been on my neck. BAD. And baby, he almost got me. I’m back to wanting to quit Wellness Wherever. I’m ready to settle. I’ve been searching for work I actually want to do because I believe you can love what you do. But I’m tired. Tired of searching. Tired of the uncertainty. Now I’m ready to just take a job and be miserable if that’s what I have to do to survive, even if it means going back to direct practice, the same work that burned me out. I started Wellness Wherever after being laid off. What started as me trying to find joy for myself during a difficult season has grown into something I feel God might be calling me to build. Almost two weeks ago, I asked God if I was really supposed to keep going. He gave me a very specific confirmation: an orange car. I said, “Okay God, I hear You. I’m going to keep going.” Then this week, depression hit me HARD. My friend was concerned. My mom was concerned. Even my doctors were concerned. That’s how bad my week has been. That’s how bad my mental health has been. Today, I woke up crying again. A reverend from my church called because I was on her spirit. I cried, told her how I was feeling, and she prayed for me. Then I read a message from a pastor: “Maybe what you’re going through is not for you. It’s for other people.” That’s what led me to make my previous video, because someone needs to see what finding joy can look like when you’re not okay. Everything isn’t going to be peaches and cream. You have to see what fighting for your joy actually looks like. I know I’m tired. But I can’t let the devil take away the one thing that brought me joy in this season. God sent His people to remind me: don’t give up on what He placed in you. God said creativity will open doors. So I need to have the confidence to keep going, even when I’m tired. Yes, the devil had me this week. But I can feel the grip loosening. And just like the song says… the devil almost had me. But I got away. #layoff #MentalHealth #depression #anxiety #wellness

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