𝒳~𝒥𝓀999~𝒳 :
We’re friends but I get jealous Everytime she’s with her gf. We’re friends but I gave the world for her in such a way, but she chose someone else. We’re friends but I never stopped loving her since elementary school. We’re friends but every day and night I still want her, but we both know it’s not possible but I atleast can’t let go. We’re friends but Everytime she’s around I always try to hug her, even in secret if one of our parents are around. We’re friends but I feel guilty for always wanting to think “it should’ve been us” or “why wasn’t it us” every single day. We’re friends but our communication slowly drains but it’s neither of our faults, it’s just life. We’re friends but I feel guilty to say “I gave the world for her then she left me” which isn’t true, she’d do anything for me as would I, but I crave too much of her. We’re friends but when I still was trying to let go, she gave me a reason to still hang on. Probably accidently too but that’s probably my fault somehow. We’re friends but I feel bad still having all this affection for her when she might be omnisexual but in reality it only feels like she’s Lesbian. I tried for her but I failed and I feel bad for even commenting but idk I’m lost, I want her, I miss her, I love her. Who even am I anymore. I got into a relationship with another while I still liked her, and ruined that girl’s entire world. And I feel awful about that. She was giving up and I just left her in a way, and it was terrible of me to do that.. we’re still friends but it’s awkward now. The worst part? She knew I still had feelings for the other one but she stayed. She stayed because she loved me that much, and as much as I love her back that much, I still want the other one. I love you so so much, E. I’m sorry, E. And I’m sorry Other E., and I love you so much too..
2026-09-06 04:50:40