Arnolitas :
We lost that spark unfortunately, alots changed , we as people have changed, the relationship has changed, I know she sees it more as a chore than anything, and I hate that, I wanna be admired this way, I wanna be told I look handsome, or be stared at and told I’m loved so much, I don’t get that anymore from her, just irritation with every conversation, everything is an argument and I’m at the point where I just apologize for it even if it’s not necessarily me, not saying I have no fault in half of the arguments but half of them I’m trying to be the calm one and I get yelled at, belittled like my emotions don’t mean anything, her emotions and her feeling ok is everything tho, it always is and I’m so tired, I deserve more than that, I’ve made mistakes but I’ve never been unfaithful. It hurts. I try and tell her smile don’t be so negative, this argument isn’t even worth it let’s just drop it, I wanna have a good rest of the day with you and not let one little moment ruin a good day, I’ll work 10-12 hours and get off with a smile on my face happy to see her and she’ll pick me up mad that I made her wait 5 minutes, mad that I didn’t do this or that, it’s exhausting, we’ve been together for about 6 years but that’s no excuse anymore , I deserve better, I deserve to feel loved, I deserve to feel that, I’m always doing the most for her just to try and get an ounce of attention or a little bit of love. I just can’t keep blaming myself, I have for so long… I wish she loved me as deeply as she did before, I wish she looked at me with love how she did before, no all there is is resentment
2026-09-09 00:45:52