Ann :
Never ever want to haunt him, and ya I still think about him, I’ve never loved someone this deeply, I think about times from aug-dec last year, it was amazing until another got involved and ruined something that was deeply passionate - but I can’t take the in and out nor the silence and tt bs! Im done with fukery and others input on things or ppl in my life, PPL NEED TO MIND THEIR OWN. I’m not about this non committal, and think it needs to be decided or not , also, if one is scared to or afraid or still has ppl in their ear, it will always be an issue along with ihim still not able to decide, I have to ask- is it really true love or is it lust- I DONT WANT SOMEONE WHO CANT OR DONT CHOOSE ME, WHO CANT REACH OUT, WHO STILL HAS A 3rd WHEEL- even if it’s a zone, I DONT DO those fuked spell bs that a person still puts on him, and fully admits to doing so, yet he stays… make it make sense- then others making choices for someone, OR SOMEONE WORRIED WHAT OTHERS WILL THINK, esp when it’s questionable- how can love be questionable, it shouldn’t matter what someone else thinks, those ppl would not be MY ppl if they can’t except me for my life choices! I need answers, like yesterday and no I don’t want an answer just for him to hold on to me, while his not really in this. I’m over this “people speaking for him”, and the fact that I have to be hidden, or all these different names, how the hell do I know what’s what, what to think, or who’s who- why hide someone if it- real feelings, unless there’s something to hide? 💜 I NEED HIM TO TELL ME HIMSELF A FINAL DECISION, AFTER HE LETS IT ALL OUT… NOW- I CANT do this anymore. I keep saying it, but get even more mixed signals-I love u- but I can’t be with u”, I want u , I miss u but I can’t decide…. It’s mind games to me! How can I not feel this way when u won’t do right by me, for me- for him? So leads me to think it’s 100 a game and I’m not a player in games in my life, I’ve live a fuked game my whole life… figure it out or I do gotta move along, I won’t ever want to force anyone I’m just asking for a bare minimum here, yet I get nothing! And I’m not doing its any longer, bc I deserve at least the min of what I’ve asked
2026-09-08 05:00:37