◇"Luisenz"◇ :
I LOVED you with a gravity that truly terrified me, an absolute and unyielding pull born from the brilliant, sharp way your mind worked, even if it is not always... and the sudden warmth of your laugh. It was a devotion so deep that the lines between adoration and obsession blurred. Even now, in the quiet spaces of my own mind, I tear myself apart wondering what truly built the wall between us. I question if it was the heavy anchor of fear, the rigid demands of school and reality, or simply a lack of acceptance for what we were becoming. It haunts me to think that if you actually cared, if there was genuine warmth in how you looked at me, but there was a force powerful enough to make me turn away. In some parallel life, in another world entirely, we were a finished story and a beautiful truth, but in this reality, we are just strangers who once memorized the shape of each other's happiness.
Yet the cold silence between us is my own choice now, a necessary boundary I drew to protect what was left of my peace. I chose to walk away, but the ghost of your presence remains because I still cannot unhear that single, cutting word you spoke. It was just one syllable, but it possessed enough venom to dissolve the pedestal I put you on, instantly altering my perspective and leaving me to stare at the cracks of who you truly are. I am trapped in a constant cycle of grief and resentment, unable to forgive the ease with which you shattered my illusion. Every second we stood close, every fleeting glance we shared, and every agonizing hour spent apart now feels like a....pit. It is a strange, suffocating rotation of emotions that I cannot escape, leaving me paralyzed by a blinding fury that you let it end this way, tangled with a heavy, unbidden guilt for ever letting you close enough to ruin me.
ISTG IF SOMEONE SAYS THIS IS AI.
2026-09-09 08:01:07