ayen :
natatakot na ako ipakita sa’yo na pagod ako. kasi whenever i’m tired, i know that my attitude can become random and i sometimes say things i don’t really mean. i become more sensitive, emotional, or quiet, and sometimes i don’t even know how to explain what i’m feeling properly. natatakot na din ako maging vulnerable sa’yo, kasi kapag nakikita mong mahina ako or hindi ako okay, iba yung magiging tingin mo sa akin. kaya minsan hindi ko na alam kung paano ko ie-express yung nararamdaman ko sayo, kaya kung ano ano yung nasasabi ko. then after that, i end up feeling guilty and regretting the things i said. kapag naging ganon ako nagiging cold ka na kaya i start overthinking and blaming myself, thinking na baka napagod ka na sa akin or baka nasaktan na naman kita. kaya ako agad nagsosorry, not because i want to repeat the same things, but because i genuinely feel bad kapag alam kong nasaktan kita. i’m still learning how to handle myself when i’m tired and overwhelmed. i hope you understand that when i act differently, it doesn’t mean i care about you less o hindi na kita mahal. dyosko mahal na mahal kita, sometimes pagod lang talaga ako and i don’t know how to communicate what i’m feeling. i’m trying my best to be honest with you, even if being vulnerable still scares me. ☹️☹️
2026-09-13 11:02:23