marvin :
I thought of her again after seeing her post on social media a few days ago, showing how happy she is now that she’s pregnant with twins. now seeing post made me think about her even more today for some reason, to the point where there are so many things I want to say to her.
I want to ask her why she left me. After fifteen years of being with her and ten years of trying to move on, trying to find clues about why she left, I ended up seeing her one random night on my social media with someone new.
I don’t really know if I’ve moved on already. But I stopped asking myself, or even the universe, to give me a sign that I should reach out to her and finally ask all the things I’ve been meaning to ask, all the things I’ve wanted to say to her ever since she left me at the altar.
I didn’t do it because, no matter how much it hurt me or how long it took me to move on, I know that reaching out wouldn’t change what happened. So I stopped myself from reaching out. I just feel like I don’t need to anymore, because I know, deep down, that I shouldn’t keep myself stuck in this situation and that naaalala na lang kita as someone na minahal ko nang buong-buo, to the point na ginawa ko ang pangarap mong bahay na ngayon ay malamig na bahay na lang, na puno ng mga pangarap na dapat tutuparin pa natin hanggang sa tumanda tayo, pero hindi na nangyari.
2026-09-12 06:53:02