heyyyy. :
I am falling in love. This person is soo funny. I wouldn't have fallen for this person if I hadn't had a crush on a girl, who will be OUR mutual friend. That person, let's give her a nickname "sun," cuz she is radiant and really cool. So that mutual friend/past crush - will be the one who like, opened my eyes on her, she wasn't afraid to be herself around her, even if our future mutual friend was saying stuff like "Who invited this dude?" she would still find a way to go in between us, like one time my past crush was talking to me and we were running at the same pace on P.E. and Sun like squeezed RIGHT in between us, saying "Space for me??" and then kept running on running faster than we leaving us behind. I love how FUNNY she is, and how FREAKY she is.. She also wear like makeup, like smoke eye and like mascara KINDA running down and it looks SO HOT. Also I think her voice turns KINDA soft when she speaks to me, and oh god, I KEPT ON THINKING ABOUT IT. Her voice is really soft.. We kinda make eye contact, but I can't make it obvious that I am interested in her, like eye-fucking, cuz I am too shy. UGHH, I just look away from her, but like my eyes still come back to her. I come to school at like 7:45, and I have to wait like 45 minutes until class starts, so I just go around the school, in hopes I would get to see her.. I also kinda followed her lunch friends cuz I wanted to see her, but she wasn't with them. I am now showing interest in her through texting like making effort to see her 1 on 1 in person cuz I am too anxious to ask her in school cuz she keeps talking with someone and I lowkey don't want to ruin it. I think I am slowly losing interest when I do not see her, but when I do, I will be in my bed, kicking my legs in the air like a kid, while overthing every ineteraction we've had, and going through her photos and reposts.
2026-09-12 20:07:59