Isaiah Abraham :
You know what hurts the most? It's the fact that every time I finally open up to someone, every time I finally let my guard down and tell someone what's actually going on inside my head, they end up leaving. I spend so much time pretending that I'm okay, laughing at things that aren't even funny, making jokes so nobody notices when something is wrong, and being there for everyone else even when I don't know how to be there for myself. And when someone finally asks me what's wrong, I hesitate because I'm scared of saying too much, scared of being judged, and scared that they'll see me differently once they know the truth. But sometimes, I gather enough courage to tell them everything, hoping that maybe this time will be different, hoping that maybe I've finally found someone who genuinely wants to understand me. For a little while, I believe them when they say they care. I start trusting them, I get comfortable around them, and I slowly stop hiding the parts of myself that I'm usually too afraid to show. I start believing that I don't have to pretend around them, that I can have bad days without worrying about being annoying, and that I can talk about what's bothering me without feeling like I'm a burden. But then things change. Their replies become shorter, their energy feels different, and the person who once made me feel like I could talk about anything slowly becomes someone I feel like I have to beg for a conversation with. And the worst part is that I never know what happened. I start replaying every conversation in my head, wondering if I said something wrong, if I opened up too much, if I became too attached, or if they simply got tired of dealing with me. I blame myself for things I don't even understand because somehow, it's easier to believe that I did something wrong than to accept that someone I trusted might not want to stay in my life anymore. I wish people understood how difficult it is to open up when you've spent so long keeping everything to yourself. They don't realise that when I tell them something personal, I'm giving them a part of me that I usually hide from everyone else. I'm trusting them with thoughts that I've kept insid
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