Eidakss🥀 :
As the eldest child, I’m tired. I just want someone who understands me, someone I can talk to about what I’m feeling and who will actually listen and understand me. I’m tired of carrying this heavy feeling every single day. They always tell me that I’m useless. Whenever I cry, they tell me that I’m just being dramatic and that I’m too sensitive. I’m tired. I want to tell them how I really feel while they’re saying those things to me, because it feels like they don’t care about my feelings anymore.
But whenever they need me, I’m always there for them. Yet when I’m the one who needs comfort, I don’t even receive a simple “Are you okay?” from them. They don’t ask me if I’m tired, if something is bothering me, or why I’m crying. Every night, I end up crying and asking myself what else I need to do, or what I’m still lacking, just so they would finally notice me.
Honestly, I’m so, so tired. Being the eldest child is really hard. I just wish that, even for once, someone would notice that I’m struggling too and remind me that I don’t always have to be strong.
2026-10-09 12:55:37