mauiiii :
:genuinely i don’t even know where to start. there are so many things i want to say but no words ever feel like enough. you meant so much to me at one point in my life. you weren’t just someone to me, you were, my best friend, my safe place, and the person i talked to every single day. you were the first person i wanted to call or text whenever something happened, whether it was something good or something bad. i never imagined there would be a day where we’d barely talk because i honestly thought we’d always have each other. i miss you more than you’ll probably ever realize. i miss our conversations, our laughs, the stupid little moments that didn’t seem important back then but mean everything to me now. i miss having someone who understood me without me having to explain myself. every time i see you or even hear your name, your laugh, anything, every memory comes rushing back all at once, and it hurts because for a second it feels like everything is the way it used to be before reality hits me again. i know you gave me so many chances, and i’ll never forget that. you stayed when you didn’t have to, you cared about me more times than i probably deserved, and no matter what happened between us, i want you to know that i’ll always be here for you. no matter how much time passes or how distant we are, if you ever needed me, i’d still be there without thinking twice because that’s how much you meant to me and that’s something that will probably never change. the hardest part is when i’m at my lowest because i don’t know who to go to anymore. i sit in silence, i keep everything bottled up, and i suffer by myself because the one person i always wanted to tell everything to isn’t there anymore. some days i smile and act like i’m okay, but deep down i’m carrying so much pain that nobody sees. i love you so much, and i don’t think that feeling ever really went away. maybe life changed, maybe we changed, maybe things happened that we can’t take back, but none of that will ever erase what you meant to me or how important you were in my life. you helped me through so much, and losing you felt like losing a part of myself. i’ve tried to move on, i’ve
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