Xhovs :
Old me was so energetic. Few years ago, I began to disappear into my own world. The noises started hunting me, and slowly I surrendered myself. Now I ask myself, where did I go? I don’t even know anymore.
I started feeling like I was not enough, even when all I tried to give was love and strength. I gave so much that I became numb, and it is so painful when you become numb because sometimes there are no words even left to explain what is happening inside.
Ghosting played a role too. It felt like it slowly stole everything from me. It is hard for me to become the old me again, the one who used to cheer for everything. I lost myself step by step, and day by day I feel like I am going down and not getting back up.
I am still in pain, and I am trying to heal myself and walk through this road. It takes time. I am looking for my miracle, hoping that one day I will stand up again and feel like doing things as before.
I hope everything that haunted me slowly disappears. I hope the pain becomes lighter and the noise becomes quiet.
And I hope whoever took so many precious things from me is happy now and can leave me where I am, because I am trying to find myself again.
Maybe it takes time to become me again. But I am still here, still walking, still hoping, and still waiting for the day I can finally feel alive again.
2026-10-07 02:52:28